i like to say that when i make the stupidest mistakes and can't say that i'm stupid even though what i really mean to say is OMGOSH SLAP YOU YOU CAN DO THE STUPIDEST THINGS! ahhhhhhhhhh.
like i forgot my IC and PDL and went for driving. so i had to come all the way home and take it and go again. BRILLIANT NUMBER ONE.
oh and i happily walked past dotz as she was leaving the jamming room the other day, hence getting my fourth toe jammed by her heels and having it bleeding later on. BRILLIANT NUMBER 2
and then carrying my cello i couldn't see the floor and i banged my OTHER FOOT LAST SMALL TOE agst some sharp thing and wham, BRILLIANT NUMBER 3. maybe it's BRILLIANT NUMBER TWO FOR BOTH- NOT WEARING COVERED SHOES.
and. dont ever ask me to be a messenger to tell pple things anymore. when i don't even know for sure who or what i'm supposed to ask. make me feel brilliant again.
and i realised i know no pooh of history. i realised i don't know anything.EMPTY! yes. BRILLIANT. brilliant education system, make me learn to have nothing in my brain and learn facts only to forget them after the brilliant exam. BRIEEEEELIEEEANT. now what i've studied for 18years makes me feel so brilliant. absoleeeeeutely brilliant. smart. i'm sure i can use all that for the future. no wonder i wanted to take the safe route initially, study a NORMAL thing, like bio or medicine or something i can mug. all we singapore people do that. mug like pooh until we're so brilliant. brilliant at studying but really, dont know anything about this world we live in or the things we're doing. or maybe it's just me. i shld just get my sorry feet to move and start being more educated. i'm like prolly more brilliant than people who don't have education, cos at least they know about their poverty and they know thigns like that. us? we don't know a pooh.
euphemisms are REALLY GOOD TO USE. sorry for the really really bitter post. i will be okay it's just these annoyed things i need to rant. replace the word brilliant with the word stupid, and you'll get the jist of the brilliantity i just feel.
i know, it'll pass. just like every storm. don't worry about me (: who says i'm never wrong about things, is wrong. so yeah, i'm not totally brilliant when i feel totally totally punked and brilliant. GOd gives me a brain and maybe it's just that i haven't had that chance to learn that. and now, i will fight. on.
but isn't that only if i've been heading right?