ok maybe i'm surviving on adrenaline, or the very strong coffee i SIPPED just now. ok fine, i took like more than 10 sips so i guess that makes a few gulps. blah.
u know what, i think having your identity in christ is the most liberating thing ever. it's like suddenly you do'nt care what's happening around you, but you're just happy in your skin.
i like that feeling, and i admit it's not easy to feel like that all the time. sometimes stupid satan throws back some old lies and then i feel sucky, but when God's in control, i just feel like He's so big, and cos He's so big, all the bad things just seem so much smaller.
GOD you are so big. EVERYTHING becomes insignificant cos God's so big. I do'nt know how this works, but it's like starting the day right makes everything else fall into place.
THE SITUATION NEVER CHANGED, in fact it just got worse. but my perspective totally changed, and i felt so happy instead of feeling disappointed and sad. And it's really GOD. it's just knowing that I DONT CARE about all those stuff, n i only care that i'm doing it for Him and having fun(: I LOVE MY JESUS! YES!! HE"S MINE AND YOURS AND EVERYONE'S! YET He's mine, and I AM YOURS AND YOURS ALONE :)
God is my first love, and He shall always be. OK maybe i say stupid things sometimes, and i think i just did just now! so i must watch that, but it doesn't affect me i guess, just that words affect pple soooooo i musn't talk nonsense abt myself also. even though i am partly amused.
I had one of the nicest catchups today (: and i'm SO glad i met her again! haven't seeeen fengg in ages and it's rare to have friends u can talk to for LONG LONG times. special people.
i'm excited. about what, i don't even know. i'm excited for the new day tmr, cos that means i can practice. i felt so tempted to do it now, but i realise it's 1.42am and it's just ridiculous! yes but i feel excited. i'm really glad i'm doing disciple and i really want to know a lot more about God's word and God cos there's just ENDLESS things to learn. and i must admit my bible knowledge is pretty bad, so i'm working on it. working on it.
TMR IS LABOUR DAY! oh gosh i don't know why i'm so high. thank you god! (: that pple can rest! :D i'm happy that it's a free day! okay. maybe i'll attempt to sleep now :D
ah and i think the allemande really makes me happy too. i really like that song. i really really like it.
you know what, the future seems exciting now. cos even if the WORST CASE SCENARIO happens, I have jesus. I might cry, i might be devastated, but i have jesus. and Jesus, is all i need.
friends may leave, they come and go
this know, YOU WILL BE FAITHFUL
You will always be the same
Your love will never change
You are the everlasting
I will put my trust in You
Forever to be true
You are the everlasting
i love you GOD! (:
shern