teach me how to let go.

the secret of life is in letting go
the secret of love is in letting it show

i'm sorry that i find it so difficult.

letting go of me, holding on to You

i'm sorry that while my mind can let go, my heart cannot. this sucks. this REALLLLLLLLLY SUCKS :( i try. i think i do. i really try. agggggh but that's the BRAIN. the brain tries. the brain succeeds. but BLAH. no wonder someone said emotions were illogical. yet that's the thing that makes us human, and real. yet the thing that makes us suffer so much turmoil.

okay. these songs playing in the background make me feel like crying but cannot cry. HAHA dont you hate that feeling. like you feel sad, but u can't cry. you know, i say snap out of it. i say don't think about it. i say move on. i say it's okay. but seriously, cliche as it sounds, it's easier said than done.

on a lighter note. i just CANNOT wait to get outta singapore for awhile. i want to bask in His goodness. i want to see nothing but God. i want to be so in love with Him, again and again. I want to see the beauty of the Lord.

just that night i was walking home from the bus stop and strangely, i never really liked darkness, never really liked the sky at night cos it was kinda boring, like no pretty clouds or nice blue sky. but that moment i was drawn to the sky, i was so enthralled by the midnight dark blue and the strength of the moonlight. the moon wasn't special, it was just normal. but its glow had this blurry effect on the clouds around it. and the stars were like little diamonds in the sky. and i was amazed. I was caught by Your beauty. God at that moment i felt like you were there. i felt like You were really present. I felt like God, you were, there. I fell in love with the darkness that night. I fell in love with God again. and again and again. I turned off all the lights in my room and i turned on this BATTERY OPERATED nightlight and sat there talking to Jesus. oh God, i love you!

I Just Want You

More than a nice melody
More than the sweetest of words
This is love i have found
and with this love i am found

I just want you jesus, i just want you my lord,
I just want you jesus, i just want you.

Never could i comprehend
The love you so freely give
Never could i be with you
But your love covers all of my sin.

I just want you jesus
I just want you my lord
I just want you jesus i just want you

There is no greater love than yours
Nothing else could ever compare
And even if i search all the world I will never find a love like yours, God

I just want you jesus,
I just want you my lord,
I just want you jesus,
I just want you,
Jesus

You know my heart, you know me so much more than i know myself. so God

Take my heart, take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
And let all that is within lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone, completely

i know that even when pain surrounds

I will praise you, i will praise you
when the tears fall, still i will sing to you
i will praise you, Jesus praise you
Through the suffering still i will sing

GOD YOU ARE GOOD.

ok guys, don't get me wrong, i'm not upset about my results, i repeat: I AM NOT UPSET ABOUT MY RESULTS, I AM REALLY REALY THANKFUL ABOUT IT!! (: BUt i also am not ELATED about it because i don't know why but to me, results are just as useful as that results slip now. cos i mean, results just tell you which path to take. but i feel quite sad for those who really wanted something so badly and now don't know if they can get it. oh well but i don't know, i felt relieved, really thankful, but i didn't feel that kinda lifechanging happiness. i teared cos i felt sorry that for gp and chem i may hv let my teachers down, but other than that, i just felt thankful. like, it's really by His grace. MATH. LIT. especially. and CHEM, was like WHOOOOO. considering that by prelims i still didn't know almost the entire syllabus and freaked out. thanks, GOd. Please help my friends who didn't get what they wanted, and help them to see Your hand even amidst the difficulty. Show them your plans, comfort them, and give them hope (:

i was w char today and i saw vincson today so i felt happy :D :D thanks for the hug pupu!

hahaha now i'm laughing cos of a few msn convos (: I MISS SCHOOL COS OF ALL THE LAUGHTER ESP.

shern