i have thing about SONGS reminding me of situations, people, memories. it's like a FLOOD of memories, pictures, like an entire POPUP BOOK (ok fine, animation story, not so suaku). actually i feel like devoting this post to the 3 things that i love the most in life.

Jesus.People.Music

Jesus. God, Father, Holy Spirit, Friend, Best ever friend, Counsellor, Comfort, Refuge, Healer, Redeemer, Saviour.. and the list goes on. I've this postcard stuck on my cupboard that says 'The one thing i'd be willing to die for'. And i think that'll be, to die for my love for God. He's changed my life, and I can never say it enough, how much He's changed me. My life testimony isnt' really dramatic but it still shouts of His faithfulness i believe! I hope that i'm like the moon, to reflect the Sun's glory. and just that day, a few days after i journalled about a RAINBOW being something like God's promises, and told Shana (while playing makebelieve) that a rainbow appears after the rain when the sun comes out, WE REALLY SAW A REAL RAINBOW. it was the FULL thing. it wasn't just a small one with half the arc. it was the FULL ARC. and wow. it was pretty, just outside my house(: GOd's promises, never, ever fail.

I LOVE GOD

yes. anyway, on to MEETING PEOPLE. i've been seriously meeting people a lot and i'm quite happy about it. and talking to pple. just that sometimes i wish i had this button that i can press so that WHEN i need a break, i can zip off to some place to get some rest BEFORE i return and continue my mission. i feel quite bad about not being able to give as much sometimes and like say byebye to pple when they actually want you to be there. but i concluded that even if i go, i'd just end up going home after that-drained and frustrated and EXPLODE at home. AHHAHA so, i'm not here to save the world, so i need some time of rest(: on that note, i'd like to write this just cos i've been blessed with people who have made my life like a pretty garden, cos they're like flowers that make it so happy and nice. ok this is a bad analogy. but yes.

and of course i've a whole lotta pple i want to talk abt but i can't just name everyone here. so yeah. this is partly cos i'm OVERFLOWING WITH LIKE 'THANK GOD FOR YOU'ness. i'm raelly sorry for those i keep pushing back meeting you. i REALLY do want to. but i'm honestly PACKED! i'm not kidding! and if you go like 'you can't make time for me?!' or 'always so busy!' i really don't know what to say! cos it's not that i put myself a lot before you. i am trying. but then again, i don't really need to worry cos i shld care abt pleasing GOD alone (: yes. so i'm REALLY SORRY IF I CANNOT MEET YOU UNTIL A LOT LATER! I DO DO DO DO want to meet(:

yar.and then again besides setting aside time for pple to chill, i need my TIME W GOD, and TIME W FAMILY, and TIME W MYSELF, TIME W CLOSE FRIENDS. (: life is cool, life is about people. and I AM RAMBLING.

i deleted the shoutouts, but i'll prob personally type it to you(: or you already know. so yes. i just couldn't do it. SIGH. HOW TO KNOW. HOW TO BE SO SURE. AND WHEN!? i'm leaving on a jet plane:(

hokays i'm stuck. i did have something else to say but then i forgot. HAHA. anyway i'm becoming quite crazy over my cello.; and i'm beginning to believe God can do bigger things than what i saw because i only saw my own human abilities.

on that note, i still have my amusing 'newage taitai' thing. HAHAHA.

don't you

that's when i say the truth hurts
bad
cos the truth can't wait

shern