go read it! i dont' know why but after reading it i felt REALLY TOUCHED. like wow. The bleeding woman just believed that if she just TOUCHED jesus, she'd be healed. and she was! wow, imagine the healing power of jesus, and the fact that he asked 'who touched me'. don't know, it's like it was such a personal experience for her. MAN i'm such a soft hearted person, i read that passage and God touched me so much through it that i teared! duh not cried, but i teared cos realy, His love is.. SO GREAT! (:
it's like Jesus healed this woman's INTERNAL HURT and PAIN and SUFFERING in ONE instant. He can do that to YOU too. He can do that for me, you, ANYONE! awwwww GOD IS SOOOOOOOOOO SWEEEET :) He isn't like any random guy who sends you flowers on vday only and special occasions, HE SENDS THEM EVERYDAY!! PLUS! NOT JUST ONE TYPE OF FLOWER, ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL KINDS! ALL DIFFERENT SEASON, ALL DIFFERENT PLACES. man, this dude must be SO INTO YOU (:
just cos my previous post had that song, it's stuck in my head now! but it's a nice song (:
anyway, think pple at this age should think about one VERY VERY impt thing before they commit to relationships. DO YOU REALLY LOVE THE PERSON FOR WHO HE/SHE IS? and it's really about WHO the person is. it isn't about what he does for you, what he has done (ok sorry i'll just say HE cos saying SHE just feels super weird, like i'm some identity crisis dude) , what he says, what he promises, all the love songs he writes, all the times he's PAID for you (like whatever lah). it's reallya bout, HAHAHAH picturing yourself at 80years of age and maybe both of you as LAO KOK KOKs and all he's able to do is be there, and be himself. no more personal chaffeur, no more flowers, no more surprises, just plain ol' him, AI MAI? (hahaha omgosh i think the squms language is rubbing off on me. HOKKIEN!) i mean, seriously!!! i think maybe i'm too OLD in my thinking, but then again, when i'm fifty and pple are complaining about their choices in life, i know that i wouldn't have regretted it.
God said love was patient. it waits (: and GOD IS LOVE! i love that fact. that love:joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, selfcontrol (: maybe LOVE isn't ONE of the qualities that make the fruit of the spirit. maybe love IS the fruit, and all the rest are just PART of love. I think at the end of the life journey, i want to know GOd and i want to know GOD as love. cos love emcompasses everything. if you have love, you'd have faith. it's like if i love someone dearly, and know alll about him or her, i will have faith in that person, cos i know that our love won't let me down. OH MY GOSH HOW SWEET! ahhahahah but i'm not talking lovey dovey, love transcends more than that! and God's love is really THAT.
if i love God and i know His character, i can have FAITH that He'll take me through every single trial in my life, no matter what.
those pple taking A level results SOON! THIS IS FOR YOU
i was talking to a very very good friend and i realised that i'm not exactly afraid of getting my results. and NONONO that's not cos i think i'm very smart and i studied super hard and i'm sure i'll do well. cos REALLY, you have no idea how much i struggled so bad last year and i dont' even think the papers were 'omgosh! so good' BUT it's NOT that. it's simply cos NO MATTER WHAT I GET, whether or not i do well or not (oh blah), it doesn't really matter.
SO WHAT? (: I know that even if i do badly, God HAS a plan for me. GOd WILL take care of me. It's not like i would have done badly cos i didn't study and i'll be eternally regretful about it. I TRIED MY BEST, i really did my best, so what regrets shall i have? i shld have studied more? but how much more could i have given? the results are in His hands, and the results don't really matter because results don't determine if you're smart or if you're not. THAT's what we're made to believe cos that's wat the world thinks.
the world says results say if you're smart or not. but NONONONO!! you've got it wrong. they don't! results just lead you to the next path. oh yes, and i remember talking to ANOTHER very very close friend of mine and we were saying how wherever GOd leads, whether or not we get certain things or we fail in certain areas, we're not afraid, cos He's gonna carry us thru and He's gonna take care of us. and then i was talking to another dear friend :) ohh i feel so happy and blessed now. ahahhah that wherever HE opens the doors and closes, we'll GO! (:
i'm so blessed to know you guys. last night i spent time writing down names of people that i love and appreciate so much. man, it's TOUGH WORK. cos everytime i think i want to end, another name pops up, then it goes on to COUSINS, and then i just go like, WOW, GOD I AM BLESSED TO BLESS (: and I REALLY WANT TO BLESS OTHERS!
hokays this post is getting LONG. but i guess i had about two points, and i thikn if this was a gp essay i would ahve gotten a large U grade. but whatever, NO MORE GP FOR LIFE! (: ahahhaha. well, GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU, so don't worry about results, don't worry about things, just do your best! (: AND know if you truly LOVE a person for who he/she is. and well, treasure your friends (: aiyar very sad, then i'll be CRYING SO MUCH IN MY LIFETIME cos so many pple mean so much to me and i guess we all one day have to die :( NOOOOOOOOo i dont' want. OMGOSH OMGOSH NO. ok i shall stop. AHAHHA. yesyes, so i pose you who are reading this some questions:
are you worried about your future? cos i remember a close friend of mine said these words to me, and i never forget that: GOD WILL PROVIDE.
are you 'in love' with someone? make sure you really love the person for who he/she is. and think about your intentions. do you want her to like you too because it FILLS A VOID YOU HAVE? do you want him to take you out because you want to show others that you've worth? do you want her to like you because it SATIFIES YOU? cos if that's it, your'e looking at the wrong places, SEEK GOD (: He's the only one who fills that gap! and check out this song 'GOd shaped hole' by plumb. ahhaha
are you feeling lonely? JESUS IS YOUR BEST FRIEND (: i always like this song that goes 'friends may leave, they come and go, this i know You will be faithful'. indeed, when all else fails, God is your friend and your refuge.
i also asked GOd why sometimes i dont' feel comfortable with some pple and sometimes i feel like they've something against me, but i don't even know what. yet i really really love these people a lot, and it only hurts me cos i don't like it that there's this wall. i don't like walls. walls hurt people :(
omgosh i talk a lot hor. but oh wells! going off. and pardon my intense 'preachyness' and 'advice to young kids' column today. that's no wonder i'm a 'nurturer' according to the silly MBTI, and fellow ISFJs shall understand. ahhhaha
(: shern