don't you just despise it when it's the same old things that jump out of you, the same old BLAHHHs that give you convoluted dreams at night?
ah. freedom my friend, we all need that.
okay i thought that was it okay. i thought that that nasty s.a.tan would stop there. but NOHH, he doesn't stop there. i think that dude knows where it hurts most, he knows the things you used to run away crying from, he knows the things that USED TO break you.
not anymore they're not. HA HA. I REALLY DO NOT CARE SATAN. I REALLY DO NOT! YOU HEAR THAT? AHHAHA YOU ARE A FAT BIG LIAR AND AN IDIOT AND MY GOD, MY GOD IS BIGGER, AND SOOOOOOO BIG IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE NO SPACE FOR YOU AT ALL, even though you're some small insignificant thing. I HAVE COMPLETE FREEDOM IN CHRIST BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE STUPID SATAN IN MY LIFE.
i think that's what freedom in christ is like. stomping out the dark areas in your life and well, letting His light shine. of course i think those things still irk me when they come thru, but it's no longer a deep BLAH i have but more of a 'ah crap' thing which lasts for a few thoughts then it's off the filter (i hope!)
sometimes i like to think that what i imagine is true. and i imagine if i'm the author of my own book, i'd describe the character as giving a weak smile in response. bittersweet kind of feeling.
oh well. i spent 2h reading today and i wish i could do more. and then it was nice spending time with che shan and ger.
on a lighter note, i'm being very amused with the 'LOVE IS IN THE AIR' thing and how Vday is on saturday and everyone seems very 'omgosh! what are you doing!' or 'NANDAO' or 'SO! what's up this saturday, tsk tsk' and i'm quite amused. even the flowers thing today that was sent as a THANKYOU to my mum started this joke AHHAHA :D anyhows, i think i've blogged what i wanted to blog which was pretty much a yelling at satan
and wonder if happiness goes in a circle
shern