what's it like that you're running away from your old self? or the lies that used to chain you in the past? the vines that gripped you at your heels such that you struggled only to find yourself choked up in the mess even more? it's like a closed room with your fears. and you've long closed the door, and you've moved on into a fresh start, into the great outdoors, in the open! and one day, you're asked to walk back into it.
do you?
do you walk back to your past fears? the people in the room remember you as that coward, that freak. but they see you now, from a distance, and you're running free, you're flying, you're laughing, you're a different person. but will you be that same, different person, when you re-enter that room? or will you become what the room tells you to be? will you become the same victim you used to be?
or are you going to walk in, with the same freedom you've gained from the outdoors and fight the fears? are you going to light up the room because you're different, changed? are you going to laugh because all the fears weren't in the place, but in your eyes?
i stumbled by and made it through the doorway
you plan to fly a plane out there. but then you remember that in that room, you couldn't even manouvre a toy plane, while the others could do that so much better. you're going back to do what you only knew what to do- fixing windows. the only thing you enjoyed doing- the only thing that kept you in another world, like the world outside was inside you, like the world inside didn't matter. instead, it made you feel free.
won't you break free
shern
HAHA this is such a DEEEEEEEEEP post.