i didn't know silly germs and bacteria and stuff can be soooooooo bad. i haven't felt so gross in ages to say that i FEEL TERRIBLE, literally. that's the first thing i could say cos seriously i felt TERRIBLE.

i haven't felt so cold and hot at the same time and i seriously wanted to overdose my panadol cos my head hurt so bad. besides the last time of my root canal thing, this is terrible pain, that's SHARP pain. but at lesat i can feel.

and Thank God i'm a little better now, compared to this morning. okay why am i blogging this! cos. i think God's been giving me strength, something i wouldn't have myself. iwant to smile and praise even midst the pain, midst the discomfort. it's always coming to me at one go, like BLEAHHHHHHHHHHHH suddenly the mountain collapses. doctor, dentist appointments, church camp. CHRISTMAS, the gigs, the practices. it's really annoying that my body's weak and can't carry thru what my brain wants it to.

it's like june camp, when we had to do like TONS and TONS of pullups. i forgot how many we accumulated in the end, but i remember it was the exact number(: and i remember telling my arms to pull up, but my arms couldn't. the feeling was crap! like. WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHY CAN"T YOU GO UP.

ah well. satan may crush my body in weakness, but he can't crush my spirit. cos my spirit is with the LORD (:

sounds rather freaky, ghostly but whatever, GOD YOU ARE GOOD.

Lord you are good
and Your mercies endure forever
People from every nation and tribe
From generation to generation
WE WORSHIP YOU

shern