i feel SAD:( pr's gone already, ching's off, marg's going off to indo, keat and raymond's going off to army, ramandeep is off, teo's going to america, bel's already gone, vincson is back in msia. sooon, everyone's leaving.
i know, i know, connectivity is the thing- we still talk on msn, but i dont' see them in school anymore. tehre's no more school. no more early morning duties, rain duties, random hellos all over school, potted plant nonsense for april foools. marg just said she missed ac a lot. i miss it a lot too.
ahha i can't believe i'm listening to my own voice now. okay this is quite farnie. but somehow, Eh it's not self obsession,it's just. that i truly love GOd with all my heart.
today's STONING sessino w char was very nice. we literally sat at the river side and just watched time fly by. talk, enjoy the breeze. i dont' know. i love this kinda thing. i could sit there the whole day and write and talk to God maybe. i could watch people pass by, i could sit there and watch. I WANT TO :( i'm so tired. i'm really quite tired of evrything happening so fast. like sitting in the bus my mind had to race thru plannign tmr, or meeting the guys before they leave for army, adn then i had other stuff to think about, plan, it's like.. neverending.
i think tt i want to do qt in the mroning after breakfast. when i come up to my room, all the TODO list kinda unfolds in my mind and i wanna get down to it, and NO. i quickly grab all my qt stuff and run to the other room. and fine, i do spend some time. but nono, everythingn's stil cramming in my mind, still squeezing me in like my dream of the curtains coming towards me.
sometimes i wonder, if i change people for the better, and i'm forgotten, and they end up happy and stuff. what about me? that's slightly wishful thinking, like those 'touched by an angel' stories. yet i like what we talked about today.
we're all messes. yeah, we're ALL messes that God's working on.
i'm tired. falling asleep. i'm wondering if i can find a nice day and nice place to chill alone. yes, my introvert self is showing and this is highly ironic cos i'm typing this on an OPEN blog. okay nevermind.
alright. time for some shut eye. it's 12.48am. whattt!
shern