i love AC! ahha today i was very touched by how the parents whipped up such a HUGE and GLORIOUS meal for all the students studying late (: and they HEAP the food on your plate and never at all stinge it. man (: then i was sitting with all the councillors and having dinner and feeling very very happy! AHHA i was really hungry though, cos i didn't eat the whole day, and the dinner was so 'BACK TO THE GOOD OL DAYS' in the council room, or rushing to wear our blazers just before the rehearsal, PURPOSELY doing our SIT STAND regime and having a lot of fun together(: then we visited the LT5 toilets and laughed over the stupid sensor in the toilet which we remember from june camp showers. AHHAHA! and visited the juniors in th council room which we realised.. we dont' really miss, cos the COUNCIL ROOM IS WHEREVER councillors are(:

coming to school makes me happy, and i guess as much as sometimes these things act as escapes, i really treasure it a lot. sat there with jessie and elmo after more of the councillors left and i saw pple studying in the void deck, eating, talking.. playing frisbee at the 'road' and i just felt.. MAN, i love AC a lot (: sooo. thank God for AC(: i'm going to miss it! so i'm treasuring the moments. dinner was seriously REALLY amusing, esp when everyone was fighting for the brownies and all the jokes started flying and it was just hilarious!!

(:

ahha don't blame me if i compartmentalise my thoughts! i am not obliged to divulge my life here on the blog.

believe me, life of course, isn't all fluffy and happy, like i'm supposed to be showing: ahhaha my talent is being happy all the time. HAHA. i dont think anyone can be happy all the time :D

-REMOVED-

well, enough of that. one thing that remains is that God's been here with me, and that's something i can't do without. it's nice to know that He's busy at work, yet it sucks to have to feel like you want to say "but GOd, i'm not you!! so don't make me go through this". But then again, i did pray that prayer, and i still want it, and i really do say it because i believe it.

so break my heart for what breaks yours

when i live for You, it's seems like no matter how bad it gets, is okay because You're here.

Don't, you don't have to save my life
No, you're not ready I can feel it
Outside it's raining, but I'll just go home
Someday your heart will just let him go

As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again
As soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
Right now I can't give you what you need
As soon as you get that feeling
Run to me

Hush, you don't have to say a word
Trust, I'm not going to hate you for it
Feels like my touch only brings back the pain
Someday those memories will fade away

As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again
As soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
Right now I can't give you what you need
As soon as you that feeling
Run to me

How can I be brave enough to say good-bye
I’d die inside without you, oh
Can't you see it's hard enough to walk away
Don’t look at me you make me wrong,
I’ve been through this to make me strong

As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again, oh
As soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
Right now I can’t give you what you need
As soon as you get that feeling,
As soon as you get that feeling… run to me

i was just sitting there and i haven't listened to my clay aiken cd for AGES AGES, but the lines came to my head. this time i'm not choosing to underline, bold or give emphasis (GP!!) to the words that popped into my mind. it's a wonder how i could have just typed this entire blog entry at this hour. i should be practising ESSAYS. yes. i shall.

without a light i fear that i will stumble in the dark

shern