in life, what are you willing to let go? dreams? lessons? hatred? bitterness? hurt? money? people?
this is what it means to be held
and to know that the promise was
when everything fails
you'd be HELD.
it's strange how you forget the things that matter the most, only to die to remember them. few days ago, i think about her. never really did so much last time. but i did. i decided then that she'd be the example, my role model that i would want to follow, cos she would be someone who was LIKE jesus but not jesus but someone whom i really KNEW. so it was.
few days ago, i asked God to reveal HIs heart to me. He did.
don't think i'm sadistic but i do imagine what it's like if i would die. what kinda testimony i would have lived.. what kinda impact i would have left.
so a few days ago, it's been like that. and i guess the issue inevitably surfaced. the issue about being weak vs strong. and i didn't realise i blogged about it in my previous post like some side point.
i don't seem to be reaching any valid conclusion here, but i don't mind. i asked GOd last night why christians always have to suffer more than non christians. i mean, if He's victorious, then WHY are the victorious suffering? just rather bizarre. ah that's besides the point.
how strange. i flicked to my ipod just now and the last song i listened to was 'Completely'.
The secret of life is letting go
The secret of love is letting it show
In all that I do
In all that I say
Right here in this moment
The power of prayer is in a humble cry
The power of change is in giving my life
And laying it down
Down at your feet
Right here in this moment
Take my heart
Take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
And let all that is within me lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone
Completely
This journey of life is a search for truth
This journey of faith is following you
Every step of the way
Through the joy and the pain
Right here in this moment
Right here, right now, and for the rest of my life
Hear me say
I am yours and yours alone
Completely
felt like your life was a parallel of someone elses? or a juxtaposition, a foil? ah not to get too litty here but, ever felt like you belonged in a tv show? sure. authors write books that imagine they're in a book. and they ARE indeed in the book. but now God comes and writes a life that i see in a book. it's startling. it's. MAN. i dont' even know why i'm blogging here now, nono i'm not upset. i'm not crazy! it's just like. like you've opened this gigantic dam of thoughts that just ALSKJS:ALKDJ blahH!H down into the stream. AHAH! and it's not bad or good. it's like a mix of everything. u see fish flying in all directions, rainbow shiny psychedelic coloured things. it's like you're in some swirly whirly trance thing. OKAY i AM NOT MAKING SENSE NOW! but YES!
well i think i've blabbed all i could. but one thing's for sure. treasure life as you have it. treasure people. walk like Jesus did. live as He did. and don't care what the world says about you being stupid. FOLLOW JESUS before you realise you should have
shern