This is not a dream that I'm living
This is just a world of Your own
You took me from all that I knew
Shown me how it feels to hope
With You with me, facing tomorrow together
I can learn to fly
Feels like I'm living in a lion's mouth, but the lion is (an angel)
i guess faith is something weighing on my mind these days. the same things, the same issues probably. the same strongholds, the same jerusalem.
yesterday i read 'facing our giants' again after a pretty long while and it was about facing those strongholds, focusing on God's strength rather than one's failures! lately i've been a confused kid. HAHA. and it's not even like i have the luxury of time to spend THINKING A LOT. cos i probably don't think a lot already but somehow i think. even in my dreams. it's kinda freaky i guess, cos when you take things out of your mind and compartmentalise it, it's kinda gone in that 'workspace', but it's still on your heart. and in dreams, it appears. not freaky dreams but scary that you realise you haven't done anythinga bout it.
haven't fully surrendered
yeah and i shouldn't sit here contemplating. but somehow i wish there was this thing where you'd know, yet you wouldn't? it sucks honestly! blah! to know you did what's best for now, and you have to live knownig that's YOUR choice, not someone else's. if anything happens it's YOUR fault. you've gotta live with YOUR mistake. you've gotta go through life knowing you've inflicted pain on others and yourself and it's too late. but this is such a pessimistic voice so i shall switch to being more alive now. BUT
don't be afraid
to HOPE in the Lord
i think i once mentioned faith, in believing everything will be okay. and i guess i'll keep doing that (:
haha it's terrible typing and then wondering anyway if i'll post it up. most times i'd just close it-say bye bye to those words.
i won't retract it, because. i won't forget, because. i won't give up, because. it's never wrong. and it never dies.
fear, lack of faith, lack of trust, impatience, weakness of the flesh- what are we made of? guess we're really that weak, weak without you. but STRONG with you!
when fear and faith collide
when i ask God that question, it's the same answer.
because, i love you
jer 29:11